un: nolongerhuman

[thesettingsun]

So. Kizuna. I get asking 'is it normal for blah blah blah' is kind of a useless question right now, since it's new to everybody, but.

Has anybody else been having weirdly large numbers of daydreams about people they met here? I'm normally pretty good about not zoning out, but lately I can't keep my mind from wandering.

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[mobileforces]

[His words sting. And yet he still feels so far away. And the pain-- is he feeling this, too? Or is it just her?]

[She was the one who broke the bond -- naturally, it snapped back and hit her harder.]

[His eyes downcast, he may miss the look of anguish on her face. But it's not natural -- this isn't just because she's upset with him. Which might just become more obvious as she falls to her side, still clutching her chest in pain.]

[But she has no right to reach out to him, does she? Not after what she said. After what she inspired him to say.]

[The pain finally starts to fade after a few minutes, but she stays where she is on the floor, expression dazed as tears roll down her face.]

[thesettingsun]

['Are you okay' seems like a dumb question, considering. But that does seem like she's in actual physical pain. For some reason.

Clearly the response is just to curl in on himself more.]

Sorry...

[mobileforces]

[It takes a few deep breaths for her to speak. She feels... drained? At the very least, whatever anger she was holding onto seems to have dissipated.]

...what just happened? It felt... like I was dying, or something. My chest still aches.

[Or... still is?? Did she have a heart attack??]

[thesettingsun]

I don't... know.

[He doesn't know anything, like she said.]

I guess it'd have to be a Kizuna thing...?

[mobileforces]

Maybe. Is... this how it feels when a bond breaks?

[That has to be what it was, right? She's not sure she recalls any particular feeling when the bond was made, but maybe it was different when they broke.]

[thesettingsun]

It must be. ...Sorry.

[Because it's his fault for being stupid and not knowing what to say.]

[mobileforces]

No, don't... I lost my temper. I... shouldn't have said what I said.

[...]

If you don't know a lot about me... it's because I don't want to talk about it. That isn't your fault.

[thesettingsun]

Still... sometimes I say stupid things when I'm trying to be supportive. I should've just kept quiet.

[At least there's no more yelling.]

[mobileforces]

...I'm not used to people being supportive like that.

[Things like that were rarely ever spoken out loud in the mafia, even when she knew them to be true.]

But... I don't think it would be so bad. To get used to it. And... living here.

[Despite what she said, and despite the distance she still feels between them -- something else inside her is practically begging to stay.]

[thesettingsun]

[After a second, he scoots closer to her on the floor.]

Can we be friends again?

[mobileforces]

[Meanwhile she starts to actually move -- at least so she can sit upright with him.]

Yeah. I'd like that.

[thesettingsun]

Good.

...I was serious about the shooting thing. I've had worse, it's not a big deal.

[mobileforces]

[Dazai they were having a mOMENt]

I'm not going to shoot you.

[thesettingsun]

[this is moment material??]

If you're sure...

[mobileforces]

[Weird Moment Material™]

I'm not-- I'm not that violent.

[...]

All the time, at least.

[thesettingsun]

That's fair. I guess I'm too used to dealing with my Chuuya.

[Who absolutely can and will shoot him.]

[mobileforces]

...they must be pretty different for you to get along with the one from my world so well.

[Tentatively touching this topic again... It's Fine.]

[thesettingsun]

[it's fine!]

Yours isn't bad when he's sober? Technically mine isn't either, it's just that he's always drunk.

[mobileforces]

Always?

[DAMN...]

Well... Nakahara-san does drink on his downtime, but I wouldn't call him violent. Just moody.

[The stories she's heard from Hirotsu and Tachihara....]

[thesettingsun]

Always. I don't think I've seen him sober since before we died.

[Which, to be fair, would be a decent reason to drink.]

Yours is much easier to get along with.

[mobileforces]

[...............]

That doesn't get any less weird hearing the second time around. That you're-- dead.

[thesettingsun]

That's me, your local spooky ghost.

[He wiggles his fingers at her. Boo.]

[mobileforces]

[Congrats Dazai, that gets her smile back.]

Oh, I don't know about spooky. I think a puppy would be scarier than you.

[thesettingsun]

That's because dogs are terrifying.

[Another thing that the Dazais have in common: a hatred of dogs.]

[mobileforces]

...r-really? Even puppies?

[Bruh]