[She says it, bright and sincere and Yukio feels a lot of things, too many things, all at once. There's a moment, bright and hopeful when he thinks oh, and he thinks she likes me, and--
and she continues, just as bright and kind and it hurts worse that way, worse than if she turned him away on purpose.
There's a moment when he stares, shocked into silence. That's it, that's all, he said I like you and if she really liked him the same way she wouldn't assume he meant I like you as my friend. He should give up, he should just accept that this is what his life is going to be like.
But he doesn't want to, he's selfish, he wants things he can't have, says things he shouldn't and ruins everything, so why should he stop now, why should he just give up before making sure she knows exactly where he really stands on this issue. He's so tired of keeping everything shoved down inside him.]
Shiemi-san. [He says, with something like a smile, something tired and worn down.]
I didn't mean-- I didn't just mean that I like you as my friend.
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and she continues, just as bright and kind and it hurts worse that way, worse than if she turned him away on purpose.
There's a moment when he stares, shocked into silence. That's it, that's all, he said I like you and if she really liked him the same way she wouldn't assume he meant I like you as my friend. He should give up, he should just accept that this is what his life is going to be like.
But he doesn't want to, he's selfish, he wants things he can't have, says things he shouldn't and ruins everything, so why should he stop now, why should he just give up before making sure she knows exactly where he really stands on this issue. He's so tired of keeping everything shoved down inside him.]
Shiemi-san. [He says, with something like a smile, something tired and worn down.]
I didn't mean-- I didn't just mean that I like you as my friend.