un: nolongerhuman

[thesettingsun]

Quick survey: do you know anyone from home here, or are you the only one who got brought from your world?

And is it weird to people from modern Japan to see Valentine's Day not being advertised in February? It was only really brought over after my death, but the last few years I've been around for it, you can't miss all the sales and promotions.

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[thesettingsun]

Right? Obviously it's not the weirdest thing about this place, but it's still weird.

[darkdisgrace]

Not that I'm particularly invested in the holiday, but it's still pretty standard these days to see stores full of specialty chocolate sets and stuff.

[thesettingsun]

Does that mean I shouldn't get you chocolate?

[darkdisgrace]

...You want to get me chocolate?

[That is most definitely not a 'no'.]

[thesettingsun]

Yes? There isn't really a time for guys to get their guy friends chocolate, so I usually just default to V-day.

[darkdisgrace]

I've never had a guy give me chocolate, honestly. Some women in the Mafia do sometimes, but that's obligation chocolate.

[At least he believes it's obligation chocolate. Some of his subordinates probably have crushes, lbr.]

Does that mean I'll owe you a white day gift, or chocolate on valentines?

[thesettingsun]

It'd make me happy, but I'm not going to hold it over your head if you don't.

[He likes getting his friends nice things when he can afford to.]

[darkdisgrace]

See, now that just means I've got to do both.

[Challenge accepted. He's not going to let him outdo him here.]

[thesettingsun]

If you do both then I have to get you something for White Day too so we're even.

[boys it's not a competition]

[darkdisgrace]

[Anything can be a competition is the spirit is there.]

Fine by me.

You're just unlucky that I don't have the money I do at home, or I'd get something that would make your eyes pop out.

[thesettingsun]

I might drop dead again on the spot. Novelist isn't a job that pays very well.

[darkdisgrace]

Shit. They aren't kidding when they call people starving artists, are they?

[thesettingsun]

Nope. I'd be thrilled to work for you, then I wouldn't have to worry about covering publishing costs.

[darkdisgrace]

You'd have do to way more than write to work in mafia business.

Wait, how the hell did you support your family then? Weren't you married with kids?

[thesettingsun]

Higuchi still won't tell me if getting railed by mafiosos is a real job I can have.

I did eventually get enough of a following to not have to worry. Before that, my family paid me a stipend on the condition that I never associate with them or return home.

[darkdisgrace]

What, you want to be a mafia sugar baby or something? Call boy?

[A pause, before--]

Shit, I never even had parents and that sounds awful.

[thesettingsun]

I'd be great at that job!

[No filter whatsoever.]

Honestly, it wasn't that bad. I was never that close to any of my relatives anyway, having an excuse not to see them was probably good for me.

[darkdisgrace]

You have no shame whatsoever, do you?

[At least one thing the Dazais have in common.]

Isn't family supposed to be close and shit, though? I don't think it's particularly common for your family to pay you not to associate with them.

[But... if Dazai wasn't going to make a big deal out of it, neither should Chuuya.]

Whatever. Once you find people you like enough to stick around, that's enough, right?

[thesettingsun]

Not about that, at least.

[He has a life full of shame, but he's always a talk first and regret later type.]

I've heard that, but I've never experienced it myself. People you surround yourself by choice are way more important than blood relatives.

[darkdisgrace]

That just makes me curious about what else you might not be ashamed of.

[But no, this is a serious conversation.]

I agree there. I've never had blood relatives, but I've never needed them. Not really. The Port Mafia is where I belong.

[thesettingsun]

♥ Later.

Glad to hear it. Don't let the other Chuuya know I said all this if he ever shows up. He's pretty touchy about his kids and he'd shoot me in the face again.

[darkdisgrace]

I'll hold you to that.

[He's silent for a long moment at the mention of the other Chuuya. It's still... weird to hear, honestly, that there's possibly some alternate 'Chuuya Nakahara' out there with... a normal life??

Sounds fake. Sounds alien, really.]

He's touchy about his kids? What, he one of those protective dad types? You haven't talked about him much.

tw: child death mention

[thesettingsun]

There's a lot to say about Chuuya. He's a genius poet, probably the best one I know. His poems are incredibly powerful.

The ones mourning his son's death especially.

[Sometimes, there are things even a protective dad can't stop.]

[darkdisgrace]

[...Ah.

Now he feels kind of crass, viewing the man's life (and apparent loss) like that.]

Shit, that's heavy. I couldn't even imagine having kids, let alone losing one.

[He understood mourning, understood anger at losing people you care about. He'd lost plenty of friends and subordinates over the years... but a kid? Not just a kid, but a child of his own?]

He really wrote about his kid's death?

[thesettingsun]

People say Spring will come again
But I don't feel any relief
So what does that change—Spring coming?
That child ain't coming back either way

As I recall, it was just this May
I was holding you at the zoo
You meowed to the elephants
And even to the birds

Only when finally shown the deer
Were you captured, or so it seemed
You stared without a word

You were truly standing
In the light of this world then
Simply staring away...