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Has anyone gotten a love letter before? They seem to be long, don't you think? I like the imagery and the emotion, but when it feels like I'm reading a scroll, I can't remember all of it!

[Does she comprehend the deep emotion behind such things? No. Magically, she can't. All the same, she is reviewing a few letters, trying...trying so hard...to understand.]

Do they want something special? I can give them flowers and I'm pretty good at the knots the Moon Immortal likes. Though I don't want to tie myself to anyone accidentally!

Can...

Can you explain love to me? What's it like? How does it feel?

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A few... maybe? I think the length might vary depending on who's writing it though... An entire scroll might be a bit too long for most however.

[He'd had a few admirers in Valinor and Finno had written him quite a few of what might be considered love letters in Beleriand.]

Mostly I think they just want to express their love and admiration for the recipient and in the best case scenario have those feelings returned by the object of their affections. But if you don't feel that way you are in no way obligated to give them anything.

Well... I can try?

It depends on what kind of love you mean. Is it familial love or romantic love you are asking about? I would assume it is romantic love, since you were asking about love letters but I wan't to be sure.

You sound like you're experienced! [She's all ears! Share your wisdom, Maedhros!] Oh. So...it's okay to not respond? I wasn't sure what to say anyway and I definitely don't want to hurt them.

[Jin Mi hasn't experienced any type of attraction or love. At least that's what she thinks. There is a gem in her chest suppressing those feelings - the last gift her mother gave her.]

I'm...not sure? All love. I've cared about people, but I'm beginning to think what they feel and what I feel is different.

I wouldn't exactly call myself experienced in the matter... [At least he doesn't think so.] You don't have to respond if you don't want to. But if you want to you could tell them that you are flattered by their attention but you simply does not feel the same. In matters like these it is hard to completley spare the feelings of everyone involved but you can do your best to be as kind as possible.

Caring is a part of love in all of it's forms. As for it being different from what others feel... isn't that true for most people? We all experience love and friendship a bit differently from one another. Love is hard to explain, but I'll try my best.

Have you ever felt like the world lights up when someone walks into the room? Like they simply being there fills you with a joy you've never felt before? Romantic love can be a bit like that, like everything falls into place when they are near you.

Mm that makes sense. [Leaving them without any answer might make them feel awful or it could mean they still have hope. She would rather avoid both outcomes.] I've been practicing my writing, so this is a good time to put it to use!

[Calligraphy is an art for a reason and though her lettering isn't as pristine as Xufeng's or Runyu's, she does try.]

It is different for everyone? [How confusing!] Why do people call it the same thing, then?

[Jin Mi falls silent and tries to imagine what he says. Of course her mind drifts to the immortal brothers and her cheeks feel hot. She's just...grateful! That's all!]

I like the way it sounds.

[It could, people usualy wanted some sort of awnser when they laid their feelings bare like that. Even if the awnser wasn't the one they were hoping for.] It might actually be a good idea to write a letter back, some people might get embarrassed if confronted in person.

There's a lot of commonalities as well, I suppose. But how we act on those feelings and how we express them are very different from one another. I suppose we call it the same thing because the core of the emotion is the same.

It is a wonderful feeling, but it can be a bit frightening as well at times.

I'm...not sure I could confront them in person. [Her voice is suddenly small and her cheeks are burning strangely. She pats them with a frown, puzzled.]

Doesn't that make it confusing? How do you know if someone loves you? I wish people would be more direct.

[Trying to navigate emotions while being emotionally blind and deaf is rough.]

Frightening? Why?

You do not need to. You are under no obligation to do anything that makes you uncomfortable. [She was not the one, after all, who had sent someone a love letter.]

It can be. Sometimes it's obvious and other times you'd never know how someone feels about you until they give voice to it. Perhaps it would be better if people were more direct but it's hard to open yourself up in that way. Most people don't like to make themselves so vulnerable.

[Emotions is hard even for people who's emotions function normaly.]

It is... a vulnerable position you place yourself in when you love someone. That can be frightening to people.

[ For some reason, this makes him feel almost angry. Maybe...jealous? Possessive? So he's a little short and sharp even as he tries to answer reasonably. ]

They? Who sent it?

[ And fails. ]

If you don't feel attached to them, you should write back, thanking them. But it is not right to lead them on.

[ ...He might be jealous. And confused by it. ]

[Oh. Him. Phoenix. Even suppressed as she is, Jin Mi finds it difficult to meet his gaze, glancing back and forth guiltily.]

Some men in the building. They saw me gardening.

[Why does he sound angry?]

I wasn't planning on leading them on! I wouldn't know how to do that anyway.

Phoenix, are you angry?

I guess I've never been in love. If I feel a certain way, I'm not scared to tell anyone. I mean I sometimes keep it from Chief Floral, but that's because she's scary.

[She's not scary, actually. She's just...basically Jin Mi's stand-in mother figure.]

[ He shouldn't be jealous. He has no right to it.

But she can't meet his gaze, and that slaps at his confused heart. Surely there's something there, if she can't even look at him!

He shifts uneasily and resists a loud sigh.

...Then she asks if he's angry, and he can't help but try to reassure her, even as emotions twist unhappily. ]

You need to be careful, Jin Mi. But no, I'm not angry.

[His reaction makes her even more confused and her back itches strangely. Little do either of them know, he is going to be the reason she sprouts her first feathers! Phoenix.]

I'm not in danger. If I tell them I'm not interested, what can they do?

[Oh she's terribly naive.]

How long depends on the sender, I would imagine.

[ Here's another who absolutely got love letters growing up /cough ]

They might - but if you wish not to reciprocate I'd advise against returning anything except another letter. Anything else might be seen as encouragement, depending on cultures - I could tell you about mine, but obviously I don't know what the locals think, let alone the other worlds here! [ Like yours. Which is. Which is weird, you know ]

What did you want to know about love?

Edited 2022-07-26 11:39 (UTC)

It's hard to tell, like I said everyone has their own way of experiencing and expressing love. It is good you feel you can be open with your emotions, not everyone feels they can. Is Chief Floral strict? Or is she scary in some other way?

So if it's really long, does that mean they're talkative?

[Who likes long drawn out silences? Then again, who likes someone who never shuts up?]

Tell me about your culture! [She won't be sending any ribbons or threads, that's for sure!] How does it feel? How do you know if you love someone?

Maybe, or perhaps they are a poet. [ He knows his fans often tried to emulate his own style ]

Or perhaps they simply have too much to say!

[ He hums ]

My folk are the Noldor, the Deep Elves - our culture is all about crafting, about learning. [ He says thoughtfully ] So, courting gifts are all about something you have made with your hands, whether it be food or jewels. There is, indeed a whole language of what can be said with gems and their settings.

[ he shrugs ] You had best ask my brother Maedhros about that. [ He says slyly, because why would a younger brother NOT tease his elder this way ]

But love ... well, I think it's fairly hard to define it emotionally, really. But I suppose, the big thing, at the end, is that love is... is active. No one I have ever know to love has loved without doing something about that love. To love is...is... to want the best for the other.

[ He'll be delighted by those feathers!

Xufeng almost asks if she would even know danger if it bit her. It just means he has to keep a better eye on her! ]

Are you really not interested in them?

I don't really understand why they are so frightened. Why do they hide what they feel? Are they afraid someone will be angry with them?

[Even that strikes her as silly. How can someone help what they feel?]

Yes. She...expects a lot out of me. It makes sense why now. When I thought I was just an elf, I saw her as mean.

Oh a poet! I would like that. [Maybe. Long poems make her sleepy.]

I can't imagine why. They only saw me creating flowers.

[Because the place she's living needed them, of course. Being blind for a week made her appreciate color.]

What about flowers? Can they say different things? If I give someone seeds or blooms, I try to pick a flower that suits them.

[She had done that for both brothers to make the heavens brighter and kinder for them. And to show her gratitude.]

He's your brother? I like his hair! [Such a fiery color!]

Mm that makes more sense. You want to take care of them because it hurts not to try. [She brings out a little succulent.] This is Rou Rou. I lost her and I've been trying to gain power to bring her back.

Well... they're afraid of getting hurt. If someone knows how they truly feels they could use that to hurt them on an emotional level.

If your not just an elf, what else are you? [He hopes she won't think him rude for asking but he's curious now.] What does she expect of you?

[The short answer: nope. Not one bit. Danger could bite her and scream "I am danger!" and she would still question it.]

I'm not! [She presses her lips together, cheeks puffing out.] I don't even know their names.

That's horrible. [She scowls at the mere idea.] Why isn't that sort of thing punished?

Uh I'm...an immortal. [Like ~~the crow~~Phoenix and Fish Fairy.] I should be more powerful than I am. I should be able to oversee one whole realm.

Because hurting someone emotionaly is easy even when you don't mean to.

But... elves are immortal as well. Unless you kill them and even then it's usualy not forever. [You go to Mandos to heal and then you're reborn in Valinor. Unless you're cursed...] Did something happen to make you less powerful?

Maybe!

[ He chuckles ]

Perhaps they like flowers? [ He nods ] Not amongst my folk, but the Vanyar and the Hobbits both had flower-languages, although I only really spent time enough to learn the Hobbit one.

[ He smiles ]

My older brother, yes. And you are not the first to say so! I hope you will be able to help your succulent - I believe I have been told they are quite resilient plants!

You should still apologize. I would. [She isn't an ice queen - even though she is literally a six-petaled snowflake.]

Elves from your world, right? Elves from mine are...lower rank. They are lower than Faeries.

[Immortals are at the top of the food chain/power chain.]

I don't remember anything happening. [When she was first born, her mother put a spell on her to bind her powers and suppress her ability to feel love.]

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you have no idea how hard it was to not have Maglor say 'love is a many splendoured thing'

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That movie drove me nuts.

LOL "ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE" "A GIRL HAS GOT TO EAT"

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Her wandering off at the end made me scream. XD So much build-up for that?

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I know right? I was like NO STUPID WHAT ARE YOU DOING

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