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[holdshisown]

Greetings Nippon, I am Maedhros Fëanorion and I arrived sometime last month. If it would not be too much of an inconvenience I would ask for some assistance.

[Maedhros looks a bit sheepish before he explains himself.]

After a small... accident one of my brothers shirts were, well... destroyed for the lack of a better word. I'm not quite sure where to go to find a replacement for him and would be grateful for any help in the matter.

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[holdshisown]

Perhaps he is the originator of good sense? He didn't get it from anyone and it just manifested in him out of nowhere?

[bythewaves]

It makes more sense than him inheriting it! Unless it passed down from Indis, I suppose.... maybe Elenwe?

[holdshisown]

Perhaps... Indis always was sensible, I couldn't say one way or the other when it comes to Elenwe. I never knew her well enough.

[bythewaves]

Nor I... Findekano or Findarato might, perhaps! But they are not here to ask. She seemed very nice, but that means little about sense. And you knew Indis better than I did!

[holdshisown]

They might have. Not as well as I would have liked, father wouldn't have stood for that. But she always gave me good advise and I've never seen her act rashly.

[bythewaves]

I wish now I had been brave enough to try and get to know her. [ He sighs ]

Too late now, I suppose. I doubt she'd want to speak to anyone from our family again!

[holdshisown]

You would have liked her. She was musicaly inclined as well, you know? [He shakes his head sadly however.] It was bad enough that I was on somewhat friendly terms with her. If you had followed my lead in this I fear father would have acted... poorly to say the least.

I don't know... she'd be disapointed in us but... [The Indis he remembers had such a large capacity for forgivenes. He'd feel ashamed facing her again however.]

[bythewaves]

Was she? [ He perks up briefly before remembering ]

Ah. Yes. Father would... not have taken that well. [ Bad enough that Celegorm was so attached to Orome ]

You think she'd forgive us?

[holdshisown]

She used to sing. I liked listening to her doing so while I was visiting grandfather.

No. Sadly enough, I think the two of you would have enjoyed each others company. I wish he would have let us get to know her better... it would have been nice having a grandmother you could talk to. [He understood why his father was against it, but for him at least it had never been about replacing Miriel. Would it have been so bad to claim them both as his grandmother?]

She always forgave father, even though he was horrid to her. She'd not be pleased with us, likely she'd be very angry but I don't think she'd hate us. I don't know if it would be forgiveness exactly, but you can love someone and still not forgive everything they've done in their life.

[bythewaves]

Huh.

Maybe... if she might think on us... a little less than hate... perhaps one day I will be able to hear her.

[ He huffs softly, nodding ]

That's true.

[holdshisown]

You'd like her songs, Kano. Though they are very different from yours.

[He gives a small, sad smile.]

Love is a strange and complicated thing. And I do believe she loved him you know, father I mean. She always tried so hard with him. She and Miriel were friends, it is said, her passing must have hurt her as well...

[bythewaves]

Difference in music is good. [ He hums ] It allows for innovation.

Maybe... one day I can play with her.

[holdshisown]

Mmm. Sounds about right. If all you hear is the same melody over and over you'll forget there's any other way to play, I suppose.

I think she'd like that.

[bythewaves]

It's no challenge unless there's something new.

[ He nods ]

If... if she will see me... then... one day, if I make it back, I will ask.

[holdshisown]

And you've always liked a challenge when it comes to music.

I think you should. She might not agree right away, but... I think it would actually mean a lot to her. I always wanted to tell her... she was a grandmother to me. Even if I couldn't say it out loud. And I could see she wanted to be that for us.

[bythewaves]

There's few who could, after all.

[ Does he sound arrogant? Yes. Is it true? Yes. Maglor has no issues with speaking truth about his music, after all ]

Mm, I think... it would be nice, to try.

[holdshisown]

That's true. I haven't heard many that could rival your skill in music.

[Maybe a little, at least to those that doesn't know his brother. To Maedhros it was simply the truth, his brother had a true gift when it came to music saying otherwise would be nothing more than a lie.]

I think such a thing would do you both a lot of good.

[bythewaves]

I miss Daeron, sometimes.

[ They have not been friends, never could be friends, but... ]

Mm, I will then. [ He smiles at him ] And you can mediate, and make sure I don't say anything insulting, like I know you want to.

[holdshisown]

I wish... things could have been less complicated betwen the two of you. A friendship would likely have benefited you both if it had been alowed to grow.

[But when had anything about their family not been complicated?]

I don't think I'd be able to stop myself from mediating. It's second nature by now, I fear.

[bythewaves]

Mm, no use wishing for what might-have-been. [ Maglor shrugs.

Between the fact that Doriath allowed none of its own folk to leave, and no Feanorian was ever allowed in, and then the Second Kinslaying... ]

You do like mediating an awful lot~

[holdshisown]

Still... I can't help but regret how it all turned out.

[Especially when there had been times where he could see how good things could have turned out if only things had been a little different.]

It's what I'm good at.

[bythewaves]

Yet another thing to lay at Morgoth's feet...

[ He shrugs weakly and smiles ]

You were the only thing holding us together, I think sometimes.

[holdshisown]

To think what the world might have been like, if only the Valar hadn't let him loose...

[But even that thought brings a certain measure of sorrow in it's wake. Would the twins have even been born if he had remained locked up?]

I think you would have found a way to manage, even if I hadn't been there.

[bythewaves]

We might still be at home with mother... although maybe not.

[ He can't imagine Father or Tyelko content in Aman forever, no matter how he thinks about it ]

Mm, maybe... but I don't think so.

[holdshisown]

If we had left under different circumstances... perhaps she would have come with us?

[At least for a while, and if they left more peacefully who's to say they wouldn't be allowed to come and go as they pleased?]

You would have found a way.